October 10, 2009

Please give thanks to God for...

• the growth I have been experiencing over this last week.
• providing me with mentors that encourage and challenge me.
• the immediate attention for my knee (1).
• the renewed desire and heart to serve the KCF students.*
• the support from friends, family, and housemates this past week.*
• the vision He has placed on the KCF student leaders during the retreat.*

Please pray for...

• the partnership between IVCF and KCF.
• those who do not have the opportunity to go home for thanksgiving.*
• support to help off-set the costs of my ACL Brace and Physiotherapy.*
• an early surgery date (hopefully early November).*
• continued growth in that I may not be proud of what I do but that I may do it all for God's Glory.*
• the small group that I am co-leading with one of the students. (2)*
• the KCF leadership team and their renewed vision on building community and investing in people instead of programs.*
• my own understanding in what it means to invest in people vs programs.*

(1) My MRI date has been set for Friday, October 16. Surgery pending.

(2) This will most likely be the focal point of my ministry is this small group.

Need Prayers

Over these last couple of weeks, God has really been placing and revealing a lot of things. It actually got to the point where there was so much happening that I was at a complete lost for words. I have even reverted to being an Introvert. It has only been now that I have been able to find some words to describe what has been going on in my life. Please pray for me.

Physically

• My knee giving out has really changed a lot of things about how I do ministry with KCF. In a way, it's a good thing because I don't feel that I need to prove anything to anyone anymore. This has been pretty draining on me because of all the physio, Dr. appointments, and hospital trips. Also, I am not able to do a lot of the things I normally can do.
• I am not one to blame things on my Tourettes but this one particular tick has been really bothering me. For some reason, it is my tongue that I can't control and it's actually causing a lot of pain and discomfort. This is a new motor tick that happened last year and I have yet to figure out a way to deal with it.
• My own physical health isn't doing all that good either. I am constantly feeling drained and a bit more tired these days.

Emotionally

• I feel that I've been useless in my ministry with KCF. I just don't feel I have been able to really connect with anyone right now. Although, I have thought and prayed about this and I think it is because I am actually comparing myself to my staff worker and the other interns. The progress they have had so far has been amazing and I guess I have been comparing what I have accomplished to what they have accomplished. Something I know I have to stop doing.
• Not only am I physically drained, I just haven't been myself lately. I have actually reverted to being an Introvert these past couple of weeks. It has been tough not being able to speak both physically (Tourettes) and emotionally (being overwhelmed) about these issues.
• My mind has been racing so much that I haven't been able to really sleep properly which could have an effect on my actual physical health.

Spiritually

• The best way to describe my spiritual life is like walking in a desert. I feel thirsty, tired, dry, weak, and overheated.
• As I said before, I don't feel like I am accomplishing anything in my ministry with KCF right now. Even though the KCF Retreat went really well, I just don't feel that my heart is in it... Where has my passion gone?
• One thing that I realized when I was doing my devotions was that I came into this internship with a lot of pride. I felt like I was ahead of everyone when really, I didn't know anything at all. I have just come to realize that this pride is one of many things that have been holding me back. Currently, I still don't know the other things but at least I can start here. I just don't know what I can do about it...
• I feel that my heart has been calloused with something. Something that is preventing God from coming into my heart to take control of my life again...

October 2, 2009

Please give thanks to God for...

• providing me with an amazing home and housemates.
• the placement with the Korean Christian Fellowship (KCF) Group.
• the growth I have already been experiencing.
• providing me with mentors that encourage and challenge me.
• the immediate attention for my knee.

Please pray for...

• a church family here in Hamilton.
• Melody and myself as we focus on building trust and relationships with the KCF group.
• the partnership between IVCF and KCF.*
• the KCF Retreat happening this weekend*.
• the students Melody and I will be mentoring.
• my knee*(1)
• being able to learn how to learn again.
• my Tourettes*(2)

(1) It looks like I tore my ACL and damaged my Meniscus and the likelihood of me getting surgery is very high.

(2) Lately, my Tourettes have been acting up a lot lately and it has been taking a lot of energy and focus to stop doing it. Please pray to rest in this.

September 26, 2009

Please give thanks to God for...

• providing me with an amazing home and housemates.
• the placement with the Korean Christian Fellowship (KCF) Group.
• the growth I have already been experiencing.
• providing me with mentors that encourage and challenge me.

Please pray for...

• a church family here in Hamilton.
• Melody and myself as we focus on building trust and relationships with the KCF group.
• the partnership between IVCF and KCF.*
• the KCF Leadership Team.
• the students Melody and I will be mentoring.*(1)
• my knee*(2)
• being able to learn how to learn again.*

(1) Both Melody and I will most likely be mentoring 4-6 students. Please pray for strength and energy as we continue to build trust and relationships with these students.

(2) I just hurt my knee really badly today. I have not gotten it checked out yet but from the looks of it, I won't be doing any sports for the rest of the semester or even the rest of the year.

September 20, 2009

Please give thanks to God for...

• providing me with an amazing home and housemates.
• the placement with the Korean Christian Fellowship (KCF) Group.
• the growth I have already been experiencing.
• providing me with mentors that encourage and challenge me.
• the times of campus strategy with Melody.*

Please pray for...

• my own personal relationship with God that I will be doing this all for His Glory.
• the rest of the interns and staff that God will continue to provide for their financial needs.
• a church family here in Hamilton.
• Melody and myself as we focus on building trust and relationships with the KCF group.
• the partnership between IVCF and KCF.*
• the KCF Leadership Team.
• the students Melody and I will be mentoring.*(1)
• building trust with the KCF leadership team and students.

(1) Both Melody and I will most likely be mentoring 4-6 students. Please pray for strength and energy as we continue to build trust and relationships with these students.

September 12, 2009

Please give thanks to God for...

• providing me with my full budget!
• the wonderful and amazing Church Family He has blessed me with at Hillsdale Baptist.
• providing me with an amazing home and housemates.
• the placement with the Korean Christian Fellowship (KCF) Group.
• the growth I have already been experiencing*
• providing me with mentors that encourage and challenge me.*

Please pray for...

• my own personal relationship with God that I will be doing this all for His Glory.
• the rest of the interns and staff that God will continue to provide for their financial needs.
• my family that their hearts may be softened.
• a church family here in Hamilton.
• Melody and myself as we focus on building trust and relationships with the KCF group.*
• the partnership between IVCF and KCF.*
• the KCF Leadership Team.*
• the students Melody and I will be mentoring.*

September 5, 2009

Please give thanks to God for...

• the friendships built and relationships solidified through this fundraising.
• providing me with my full budget!
• the abundance He has given me on top of my budget. (1)*
• the wonderful and amazing Church Family He has blessed me with at Hillsdale Baptist.
• providing me with an amazing home and housemates.*
• the placement with the Korean Christian Fellowship (KCF) Group.*

Please pray for...

• me in releasing my own agenda's in IVCF, life, relationships, everything and take up God's agendas (Isaiah 50:10, 11).
• my own personal relationship with God that I will be doing this all for His Glory.
• that God will change my whole perspective and give me His vision for the University Mission.
• the rest of the interns and staff that God will continue to provide for their financial needs.*
• a mentor who can relate, challenge, and help me grow during this internship*
• my family that their hearts may be softened.
• a church family here in Hamilton.*
• new friendships. (2)*
• my placement with the KCF Group.*

* New prayer/praise items

(1) Actual Amount: 90.26% Expected Amount: 33.07% Total Amount (Actual + Expected): 132.33%

(2) Very recently, I am starting to have feelings of loneliness. I guess it have forgotten that I don't know very many people here and haven't really formed many strong friendships yet. I'm starting to feel a little homesick because of it. Please pray for new friendships and that I may have patience.